Ssssshhhhhh....

The wango tango is still not living here at the moment.  Freaky.  Traumaversary is coming up in a few weeks....will it last????  Not holding my breath but I am enjoying every moment.

There weren't even repercussions from the 6 hour DCFS worker visit this week.  Huge!

I did start her back on Abili.fy last Friday.  That's the only thing that's changed.  J's been on it before (2 years and 15 lbs ago) and it didn't change anything.  A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G.  She might as well have taken a Tic Tac.  I gave her the same dosage (5mg) that she was on 2 years ago.  The RAD may not have let the Abili.fy work.  The power of the RAD control human spirit?  Maybe now that she's attached she'll actually allow the med to work???  I don't know.....  Kristy was shocked too and we both told her that we were so happy that the "Real J" was back and that we'd missed her.  She loved that!!!

Her sense of humor is back and there is lots of laughter and giggling which makes my heart sing.  I didn't realize how much I missed her laughter until it came back.  She has been really helpful and has a great attitude.  Not only that but she has her Attitude of Gratitude back instead of "oh woe is me" attitude.  The spark is back in her eyes too. 

Because the wango tango has been around for a while she hasn't spent much time with her dad.  Now that her normal brain is back she's going to stay with him all weekend starting around 10:30 tomorrow morning.  This is a huge deal for her dad because he normally only wants to do 1 night.  Kristy has been trying to educate him and he listens to Kristy. :)  I have a feeling he's going to be exhausted Sunday night. ;-)

Maybe I'm Back

We'll see...

The blogs weren't private.  They were completely down due to circumstances beyond my control.  Thanks to all of you that have offered support.  I'm so grateful for all of you.  Honestly y'all have been more supportive than a lot of my IRL friends. 

J has been struggling for the last couple of months and understandably so.  Understanding doesn't make it easier though.  We've been back at RAD 101.  I'm scared to type this but I think she may have turned a corner.  So picture me doing the soundless jumping up and down and mouthing "yay!" 

We've been trying to go out to capture life outside of our chaos.  Trying to find joy and beauty again.  Thank you, Diana, for "making" me. :)