Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Grief

Today has been the hardest day.  I'm not sure what happened but I think grief has finally arrived. 

I've been waiting on it....wishing it would hurry up and get here so I could get it over with. Well...it's here now.

Ugh.

I've started crying (this morning) and I can't seem to stop.

26 comments:

Lee said...

sending virtual hugs!

GB's Mom said...

{{{{{Hugs}}}}}

Mama Drama Times Two said...

Tissues, hugs and Clonidine Brownies.

Tab said...

Hugs to you - i'm sending comforting vibes your way. Call me if you need to. Love you girl. You're an awesome mom.

Corey said...

Let yourself have it. You have been to hell and back, and your losses are tremendous. You deserve time to grieve. Wishing I could bring you some Ben & Jerry's and some Puff's Plus with Lotion. xoxo

Diana said...

Hugs and loves. :-( So wish I could deliver them in person. Grief sucks...but keep pushing through it. There really is light on the other side.

I know for a fact you're not alone in grieving today. Apparently my post yesterday rattled more than a few cages. I've had hurting moms coming out of the woodwork over it, both in my public comments, but even more so privately. Let's just say there's lots of tearful, hurting moms out there today. I have no idea if that had anything to do with the dam finally breaking for you, but if it did, I'm not apologizing. :-)

Just let the emotions come however they're going to come. Don't try to stop them. It's not a pretty or a fun process. In fact, it's hard as blazes. Just trust that it will be worth it. Remember these are emotions. They come in (sometimes with a vengence) and they go out. Let 'em in. Let 'em out. Did you get your package yet?

waldenbunch said...

Would you hate me if I said that was great? It's so much a part of grieving, but there have been times that I felt nothing and that scared me more than the crying. You have earned the right to take the time to let every tear fall. Love 'ya!

Tracey said...

It's the only way to get to the healing. So sorry you have to go through this. Hugs!!

Reighnie said...

Misery loves company. I've been staying away from my blog because I've been a giant puddle. Today has been soooo shitty.

Thanks for sharing. I'm sorry you have to feel this way, but I think I can safely say I can somewhat relate.

Is it crazy that I'm feeling a little better now knowing I'm not the only one? I've been feeling like such a whiny loser.

*Hugs*

Anne said...

Don't know what to say, except I'm sending you lots of hugs...

Sarah said...

*hugs*
Be kind to yourself. I have not been following you long, but I know for certain that you are an amazing woman. I am wishing you soft blankets and pillows and tissues and tea.

Story of our Life said...

(((HUGS)))
Sometimes I wonder when it will ever go away. And others days I think "wow" it's been so good.

Grab some icecream, kleenex and a blanket.

Ride it out.

You're not alone!! Crap...do I wish it didn't have to be.

:)De said...

love and hugs

Emma said...

Hang in there, Lisa. Sending you hugs and healing vibes.

The Waggoners said...

praying for peace and strength

Kelly said...

Oh Lisa. (((Hugs))) :(

Essie the Accidental Mommy said...

Oh no, I am sad for you. I do hope it eases for you soon. This may sound strange but I think you deserve the time to let it all out and grieve as hard and as long as you need.

I do like MDTTs idea of clonodine brownies though. Personally I like to float a xanax in my bloody mary.

Trauma Mama said...

(((Hugs)))

marythemom said...

I'm so glad you're able to do this. Wish I could be there to provide a shoulder and chocolates.

Hugs and prayers,
Mary in TX

Kerrie said...

I'd come cry with you if I could.

Lynne said...

You have a right to every one of those feelings. You will feel better at the other side of them. I agree with Diana and Corey. Take care of yourself, Friend. I sure wish I could bring you a bottle of wine.

PAM said...

Dear Lisa,

Know if I lived near you {and knew you IRL} I would be there with a big hug.

You're a sweetheart and an amazing lady and I am so blessed to *know* you. Praying for your heart to heal.

xox

BT said...

Let it all out. No self-censoring. Just let it come out.

Lindy said...

I've been blindsides this week as well. You think you are past the worst of it,then it slips up on you and you are trying not to cry in public. It is a death without the hope of heaven. The grief is just as powerful.
Take care of yourself,please. Let yourself grieve.

Kristin said...

*hugs* Tears are good. You need to heal.

matryoshka said...

People in Maine love you and send you hugs....wish I could do more.