Tuesday, March 31, 2009

For All My LDS Friends

The picture above is the LDS Temple on Broadway in NYC which was a part of our view from our room. I meant to post this last week and totally forgot.
I also forgot to tell you about the little disruption in service Sunday afternoon and yesterday. As we were coming in the door at the lake, J slammed the door. I had her go back to practice shutting the door and Puddin came bounding through the house headed for the porch. I was standing right beside J when she looked at me (it was just a glimpse that you just know) at the same time she shut the door on Puddin. It was fleeting and then she caught herself and pulled the door back. I went after Puddin first to make sure she was ok and sent J to her room. Checked Puddin then went back in the house to talk to J. She was bawling and G was in her room. He said, "she didn't do it on purpose, she's sorry, ease up on her." I knew this was not going to be good. Told J to start packing and G followed me out of her room telling me how mean I was to her. Hmmmmm.....bad decision. I knew J could hear him. He repeated it 4 or 5 times which of course made me madder by the minute. I replied calmly several times and the last one I yelled that I knew what I was doing. He stormed out and J & I packed the car.
I didn't discuss it all the way home because I needed to get my thoughts together. I was going back over it again and again and trying to analyze the situation. Second guessing myself all the way but my gut knew. I just knew. When we got home I pulled J in my lap and asked her what happened. She was sobbing saying she didn't know. I told her I thought I knew what happened and explained that I thought that she was very, very mad and the old her wanted to hurt Puddin but the new J caught herself before it got bad. She agreed sobbing and made the sweetest apology to Puddin to which Puddin licked her face up one side and down the other. Then I told her that she was trying again to make G mad at me and she agreed with that too and said it was because she was still mad. G appeared a few minutes later and J told him exactly what happened and apologized for her behavior. I apologized for mine. Somehow he never apologized to me. I knew he was sorry but it sure would be nice if he would model an appropriate apology for J. Oh well....
Yesterday, at lunch, she got mad and put the dishes in the sink very hard. All while looking at me. I can't believe they didn't break. I let it go at the time. When dinner time came I cooked her dinner and put it on a paper plate. I didn't eat. After she finished and the kitchen was cleaned up I sent her to go get dressed and jump in the car. After we were both in the car I told her that she was going to buy me dinner at the Thai restaurant to make up for being mean to the dishes. She was not happy about that. I made a huge point of telling her that it was so sweet of her to take me out to dinner. Hardest meal I've ever had to eat. When it was time to pay and J was handing over her money, I made a really big deal telling Valentine that I had the most awesome daughter in the world because she took me out to dinner. Valentine thought that was so sweet. I got to brag on my kid even though it was a consequence. You should have seen her chest puff out and the grin on her face. The sweetest thing! The bonus: today she was so gentle with the dishes. Maybe the meal that I choked down was worth it. Yay!
Thank to the brilliance of Foster Abba I've now set up an email group to email all of you when there's a post on the other blog. It'll be coming from the gratefulhouse @ gmail dot com so be looking for it.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Busily Cooking

I'm working diligently to get more meals in the freezer in preparation of my long weekend off. A sitter is coming Thursday and I'm off for my annual Serenity Trip. (I pay every year in advance so that I'm committed.) Ooooo weee I can't wait.

It's worth all the extra work and I can sleep in on Friday. The sitter will be here till 4 on Sunday so it'll be a bit of a rush coming back home but that's ok. It'll be pedal to the metal.

Next week I'll be all aglow with serenity and joy. Rested and renewed in preparation for a new addition.

Priscilla, I'm waving at you. Can't wait to see you!

Sunday, March 29, 2009


2 new posts on Special K's blog. One being the Cliff N*tes version of tapping & rubbing on other blog with a perma link in the top right hand corner.

I have one person, that I know of, that is having difficulty getting on the blog and many people that haven't picked up invitations. I have invited everyone that sent me an email. Perhaps the invites are sitting in junk mail or some of you are also having problems? Please let me know if you're having issues getting on the blog.

If anyone can help me figure out why Linda can't get on the blog I sure would appreciate it. Tubaville did you have any problems with this?

We went by the other house this morning and discovered that the power to the fridge had been cut off. For a while. The smell almost knocked us down when we walked in the door. Joy. Did I clean it out. Nope. Cut the power back on and I'll deal with that another day. Yuck.

We're home now and I'm STILL fighting off something. It's not terrible but it sure is inconvenient.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

All Done

All invitations are sent. If you haven't gotten one it's because I cannot find your email address. Sorry.

Thanks for your patience!

Things are rocking along here. J finished her Saturday chores in record time and she's now curled up on my bed re-reading Little House in the Big Woods. :-) We're getting a nice steady rain with a little thunder in the distance. Might be a nap day.

Later we'll be heading up to the lake, building a fire and roasting some marshmellows for smores.
I'm taking a non-therapeutic parenting book with me. ;-)

Have a great weekend!


I'm trying so hard to get all of you set up. However, I'm finding that a lot of you don't have emails attached to your id. I HAVE to have an email to set you up. I will NOT post your email on the blog if you choose to give me your address in a comment. Once I enter your email address blogger will automatically send you an invite.

Please email me at LisaAmos at payco.org

Friday, March 27, 2009

Exciting News!

Click here now. Go find one of our old, figuratively speaking, friends. (Tiruba Tuba lives there in Tubaville.....hee hee.....

I've been to Tuba City but it won't be near as much fun as Tubaville.

New Posts

I am still going to keep this blog open and running. I have invited as many as blogger will allow me at the moment. Don't worry if you haven't gotten your invitation. More will be coming tomorrow.

There are 2 other new posts up now. To all those that haven't gotten your invitation yet please have patience with me. This invitation business is a royal pain in the hiney. I'm getting there....slowly but surely....

New Blog & Permissions

Ok....I have my first post up on the new blog for Special K. I haven't set up all the invitations yet. Waiting till later today. I'm going to print a copy of all the followers on this blog, then look up all the email addresses. Those of you that have emailed me....I have a list of all of you too. Discovered that there's just no easy way to do this. ;-(

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Still a little off....

J was still a little off today. During school she kept mentioning that she was sooooo tired. Finally I threw school to the wind and put her down for a nap at 1:30. She was still SOUND asleep at 3:45. Had to shake her to wake her up which is really unusual.

Normally I'm the freezer queen for dinner. I cook everything then freeze it in individual portions then pull it out and have dinner in 15 minutes. Tonight I cooked a fresh dinner and we had Pioneer Woman's meatballs for dinner and they were sooooo yummy. Next time I'm going to use panko bread crumbs instead of oatmeal though. I always use panko for meatloaf instead of oatmeal and love it so much more so I'm thinking they'd be really good in the meatballs too. The panko crumbs seem to make it lighter. I added a little cumin to the sauce and I think it really added a little something extra. These would freeze really well but I'd freeze the sauce separately.

One of my new friends, fellow RAD mom Laynie, had a friend of hers send me an email about cranial sacral and somato emotional release. Her friend, Elisha, sent me a great link so I'm sharing it with y'all. Click here. Our first AT's were trained in CST, as most AT's are, but never used it on J. Have no idea why. It's one of the few things I haven't tried but I'm going to be looking into it. It might be another great thing to start with Special K.

No news on Special K. She's stable in the RTC, there's no fire to put out so she waits. And so do we.....

This weekend I'm going to be starting a new blog to chronicle the newest adventures and I'm going to make it private. Most of you are special needs moms so you'll know I need to vent and I'll need to do it without trolls judging our roller coaster ride. I'm also going to need all your ideas and brainstorming to help us along.

I'll invite everyone that's following here (if you have an email attached to your id - if not please email me if you want to follow along). Since private blogs only allow 100 readers and don't show up in google reader I'll put an alert on this blog to check the new blog. Is that convoluted enough???????

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

GI, etc

I've been recording all the guided imagery in Invisible Heroes for J. They play all night in her room. She LOVES them. I can see the progress daily. I also suspect it's another reason she was so successful in NYC. She's processed a lot. They build on each other as you go through the book so it's important to work through the book and not pick a few randomly.

We've made it into the 2nd section of the book that covers trauma. There's several that come before the actual GI for trauma. She made it fine with the first 2 in the 2nd section but Monday night I started the 3rd one. It's for softening pain so I thought that it would be easy peasy. Not. She was off kilter most of yesterday. About 9 last night it occurred to me that she had started a new one and that this might be a problem. You should have seen me sprint to her room to put it back on peaceful sleep. I was a blur.

This morning she was a little off too. Not bad....just off... Therapy day today. The AT & I discussed what I was worried about and she thinks that until we work through the trauma section that we'll do those in her office then I can go back to the recordings for the recovery section. She said it would be important to have someone holding her while we worked through this chapter. I'm single so we'll do it with Kristy (AT). She's gauging J's reactions and responses while we're going through it. So we cuddled on the couch under a blanket and when we got to the part that said to put her hand on the part of her body that hurt she put my hand over her heart. I almost burst into tears. I was already giving her Reiki while Kristy was doing the GI and I think it was extremely helpful in her processing and that intuitively she knew she needed Reiki on her heart.

I'm passing this info on to all of you if you are using this book (which I highly recommend) please hold your child while someone else is doing the GI during the trauma series and don't do random GI's. Allow them to build. So much of what our kids went through was pre-verbal so they won't have any idea why they feel the way they do so they need someone to comfort and hold them.

My friend, Sheri, took the words out of my mouth today. Go read here.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Message Regarding Torina

A troll nearly ate Torina and she is now hiding under the bridge at a Busy Intersection. Her blog, as a result, is now private and you will need a password to get in. If you are a reader, you can email her at torina.busyintersection at yahoo dot com for access.


Run along now and email her....she can only allow 100 readers on a private blog so you'd better be quick about it or she'll be a sold out show.

All Better?

I'm hoping and praying that every one is better now. It was a feverish, stinky, exhausting hot mess of a few days. I've been feeling a little icky myself but it seems that the anti-flu meds the doctor prescribed are going to do the trick. I hope.

This week I'll be able to pick up J's new psychological. I'm real interested to see the changes since the first one in 2007.

J did pretty well staying at G's. It was the first time she's stayed there so it was a new place therefore scary at night. We came home Friday night and it was time. J was really needing some one on one time with me. Truthfully I was too. We had snuggle time as soon as we walked in the door.

Since last week was a total bust for school we're starting fresh today. Monday is Language Arts day so J is working diligently. She loves LA!

Thanks to Mimi for the award. I had no idea she's been reading my blog. That was a really nice surprise!

I'll finish this up later. School is calling my name.....

Friday, March 20, 2009


I am behind again. G has a major case of flu and so does J. J is getting better but still sounds really croupy. We've moved into G's house temporarily because he is just pitiful he's so sick. My dr called me in some anti-flu stuff so I'm praying I don't get it. My hands are dry and cracked I've washed them so much.

Dia I haven't forgotten when I get home and back to my computer I'll send you my thoughts on our conversation. Tudu, I promise I'll call you back. SW 24/7 Thank you ever so much! I'll get an answer back to you too just as soon as I can.

I'm off to change the sweated sheets. Again.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009


Just got off the phone with AT. It's appearing like it's a done deal. There will be a matching meeting with our s/w and Special K's worker to seal the deal. Then the ICPC paperwork will be started. I have a few connections with ICPC in GA but worried that with a state as big as Texas that it might take a really long time on their end. I'm also a little worried because a visit hasn't been mentioned.

A little more info on behaviors including that she is charming, attention seeking, aggressive, destructive, enuresis, poop holding, and been kicked out of school several times. Yep. She's my kid alright!

Special K

Our AT finally heard from a Texas worker regarding Special K. I'm waiting on her to call me after her last patient leaves. The caption on the AT's email said, "Wow, Wow, Wow!" So I'm sitting on pins and needles.

Pictures and a Sick Baby

Since I have no idea how to embed the slideshow click here. That is if you're interested.

Completely forgot to tell you that when we pulled into the FBO at Teterboro, it was swarming with Secret Servi*e. Interesting. Apparently an Ambassador was arriving shortly. This was my first trip ever to NYC that I didn't spot at least 2 famous people so I guess the SS will have to do.

J is down with a cold. 2nd time she's ever been sick. Last night she was still pooped and said she had a sore throat. This morning she woke up all croupy sounding. She had breakfast, a salt/soda bath then went back to bed. Slept all morning until I got her up for lunch! She has been a sweet little patient too.

Thanks to everyone for their help! I think photobucket is totally the bomb now! While J was sleeping I uploaded over 3 years of pictures! Yeah....I was really behind.

Monday, March 16, 2009

I Need Help

Tired, cranky and frustrated is living in my house. And it's not J. It's me. I've tried several different online photo thingy's and can't find one that is easy to upload (a lot of pictures at one time), allows me to order prints, AND lets me create a slideshow for blogger. Does such a thing exist?

I'm tired of looking so can y'all help me? Please I'm begging....simplify this for me.

I'm very overwhelmed at the number of blogs that I'm behind on so if I didn't comment. ... Sorry.... I'm way behind....

Sunday, March 15, 2009

NY Girls Back in Georgia

42nd St. Love

J labeled us NY Girls this morning. Tee hee!

She loved NYC!!!! Better yet, she was able to hold it together just like a normal kid. I even called the AT last night because I was so excited that she did so well and had the best time!!! Yay J!!!!

We even exceeded my expectations. Our driver is a native New Yorker and he took a liking to J and made sure that she had the best time!!!! Here's our list of accomplishments:



Lincoln Center
Central Park Strawberry Fields
Look Sheri: (your reward for comments!)

A quick tour of Grand Central Station and dinner at Michael Jordan's.

Times Square

Back to the hotel to crash. J spent most of the night awake and if she wasn't she was kicking me and sleeping on my side of the king size bed. Finally at 3 I put her on the sofa since we had to get up at 5:30.


7AM Bright and early:
Hell’s Kitchen
42nd Street (Love Statue)
NBC Building
Ziegfield Theater
Greenwich Village
George Washington Park (Arches)in Greenwich Village
China Town
Little Italy (Got J 2 mini-canoli from the famous Ferrano's Coffee Shop)
Central Park
Rockefeller Center
Empire State Building
NYC Sky Ride
Times Square
Madison Square Gardens
Chelsea Pier
NY Public Library
Post Office
Dakota Building (beautiful apartment building where John Lennon was murdered)
5th Avenue
Chrysler Building
Battery Park
Ground Zero
Alphabet City
Gramercy Park
City Hall
Mayor’s Office

Financial District
Midtown Manhatten
Lincoln Center
Radio City Music Hall
Columbus Circle
Trump Towers
NBC Studios
Carnegie Hall
Tavern on the Green for lunch
Museum of Natural History
Nobu 57 (dinner) Sushi restraurant owned by Robert DeNiro. It was divine!
Beacon Theater (The theater has been purchased by the folks who own Madison Square Gardens so it has been completely renovated. Kirk brought me in the back stage door before the concert so that I could take a look around. Huge improvement!)

J crashed at 8 PM and I was right behind her. There was no kicking or taking over my side of the bed last night. She slept like a log.

This morning we went back to Battery Park and caught the ferry to Liberty Island to see the Statue of Liberty and to Ellis Island then back to Teterboro. Everybody was asleep on the plane within 15 minutes! The biggest news was that J fell asleep on the plane too! 8 people on the plane with lots of turbulence and she slept right through it! It's probably going to take 3 or 4 days to recover.

Home at 4:30, dinner and she was out like a light at 6:15! I'm having pate on mini-toasts for dinner.

I took 64 pictures. It's a record!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Sneaking Up on You

Muuuuuwaaaahhhh.... I'm stalking you from the Big Apple.....

No. Not really. I did not take my computer to NY but I typed this up on 3/12 and asked blogger nicely to post Saturday morning. We'll see if it works.

Right about now we should be at Rockefeller Center. Yay me. Already can't wait to post pictures for you. I'm going to "try" to do better in the picture taking department during this trip. I royally stink at taking pictures. I get so caught up in the moment, seeing everything and committing everything to memory that I forget to take pictures.

Mockery Mark once said that he spent a week in Las Vegas with G one night. That's going to be kinda like our trip.

Hoping we make it to the Museum of Natural History. The AT & I worked out a plan that I will carry J while she closes her eyes through the dinosaur exhibit. I think she'll really enjoy it once we get past the dinosaur at the front door. When I was at best buy purchasing my computer, they were playing Night at the Museum on all the screens. It terrified J and she had many nightmares afterward. (Remember we don't watch TV because it sets off triggers and it's never pretty.) We also talked about exactly what was going to happen and that I would always keep her safe. Changes in schedule are hard for most RAD kids but throwing in LOTS of new things can be really scary and will result in an off the chart meltdown. Trying to prepare her for all events may be helpful. More will be revealed later.

We did tell her that if indeed she did need to throw a fit that she needed to get out of the car or stand in the hall of the hotel until it was over. That may keep her from throwing one because she hates for others to see her on the crazy train. Hee hee.

If you haven't already, please check out Toolbox Parenting. I received an email from Nathan and he said the broken links were fixed so there's even more tools to discover. Nathan and Deb Fjeld created this site specifically for parents like us. There's even a community to join (free) to throw questions out and get help from other parents. To join look for the box on the right side of the screen. Honestly I haven't utilized it all yet but eventually I will.

BT....Thank you for de-lurking. It's great to see you. ;-) If you start a blog I'll be your first follower. Pinky swear!

Friday, March 13, 2009

Leaving on a Jet Plane

At this moment I am sitting on the plane en route to Teterboro and the Big City. Probably somewhere over Virginia right now. I didn't want to leave you hanging so I'll share some happenings around the house.

J and I have talked through the plan of how I'm going to keep her safe so that she can relax and enjoy the trip. The configuration of the plane is that the back two seats face forward, the middle seats face forward and the front seats face the middle and back seats. G & I always sit in the middle seats so J will sit in the seat facing me so that she can hold my hands and look in my eyes if she's scared. Plus it'll be a quick jump if she needs to get into my lap. Since 9/11 it takes a really long time to descend to the airport. This means she'll get to view the skyline of NYC for a good while. John and John (father & son pilots) are always extra cautious but they will let her come look out the cockpit windows if it's safe. She's had a little flying practice so this should be fun for her.

I've shown her pictures of our divine hotel room from online so that she'll know the set up and that Daddy G's room is right beside ours. She's also seen pictures of the restaurant and all the places we'll be visiting so it won't be too scary. I hope.

Sidenote: J has earned the privilege to be alone with the pets. Wednesday evening J went by herself onto the back deck to pet Stud (cat). She came back in the house very quietly. Too quiet for J. I asked her what was wrong and all she kept saying nothing was the matter. I knew better. She walked straight through the house and into the garage to go out the front of the house. I walked outside and put my arms around her. She started sobbing. Real genuine tears. I asked her what was wrong again and she said, "the cat bit me and I was being so nice to him." After I consoled her I explained that cats will sometimes bite you (you know the gently, playing bite) because they like you. (I had asked if it was a hard bite or gentle bite.) Then she felt much better and went back to pet the cat.

Last night she plopped down on the floor (right in front of me) to pet Puddin and accidently hit Puddin's paw and Puddin yelped. I consoled Puddin first and made sure she was ok then had J apologize to Puddin. She very quietly went to her room afterward. I went in her room and she was sitting on her bed facing away from me. She motioned her hand for me to go away and softly said, "please go away." I picked her up and sat her in my lap and she started sobbing so hard. "I didn't mean to hurt Puddin. I promise it was an accident. I would never hurt Puddin again. She's going to hate me forever because I broke the promise." Of course I told her that I knew it was an accident blah, blah, blah.

Later I told her how proud I was that she cried over Puddin because that meant she was becoming more like a normal kid because that's what a normal kid would do. She was very happy over that. I can't tell you how much it warms my heart to see genuine tears. Twice in 24 hours is a record!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

There's Excitement in the Air

Ooooooo....I'm getting so excited about the trip to NYC. All a tingle. I'm dreaming big here but this is the list I hope to accomplish. I have been having J study about NYC and all the cool things we're going to do so that she is more familiar with them to alleviate the stress. This is her first trip there so I'm hoping it will special for her.

Friday night: Dinner at Michael Jordan's in Grand Central Station, drop G off at the concert, go back to the hotel, stop in Balducci's to pick up bagels and lox for breakfast and then up to the room trying to spot Jeffery Dean Morgan. :-0

Saturday morning up at 6, breakfast and downstairs as the driver is picking us up at 7 AM.

Greenwich Village

China Town

Littly Italy

Central Park

Rockefeller Center

Empire State Building

Lunch at Ray's Pizza

Times Square

Museum of Natural History

Dinner with G and company.

Yes, I know this is a long list and we probably won't get half of it done but I'm sure going to try.

Sunday - Statue of Liberty and Liberty Island (We are NOT leaving NY without this visit.) A quick trip to Balducci's to bring home some cool stuff that we do not have in GA.

Depart Teeterboro at 1.

Come home and crash for 3 days.

I ♥♥♥ NYC!!!!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


At lunch today, J and I were having a conversation about Special K moving home. (She's been renamed Special K by Torina and I love it.) I asked her what she remembered about moving here. She remembered absolutely nothing. I told her that her FM had brought her here on a plane. A couple of hours after this conversation she remembered that they served food on the plane and related it to G's plane in that there is not a flight attendant doling out food. She didn't remember her first night here or even several nights into the move. She did remember bleeding and the barbie incident. She could probably sense that I was freaking out when that happened even though I was so trying to fake it. After she was sound asleep I went into total freak out mode.

I reminded her of several things that she did during that time and she was stunned. She would walk into things (as in walls and furniture) all. the. time. She couldn't find her way from her bedroom to the kitchen and it's a straight shot. For days all she would say is, "stop, drop and roll" over and over and over. She refused to eat ANYTHING that I cooked declaring that she wasn't hungry. I asked her why today and she said, "I did not want anything to do with your love." Imagine that. She would not hug me up and would constantly play "keep away" and run away from me. No eye contact at all. Wailing for hours on end for the abusive FM. I asked her why. "Because I didn't know you. She was mean to me but I knew her."

Me: When you moved here were you scared of a new home or were you scared to have a mom.
J- I was scared to have another new mom.

She does remember the stuff she did to Puddin. When asked she said, "I have a promise between you, me and Puddin that I won't hurt her ever again. If I break that promise she'll never trust me again. She trusts me now.

I asked her what she thought would make this an easier transition for Special K. These are her ideas:

1. She can't call you mom until she gets better. She needs to call you Miss. Lisa until she decides to be a family girl. Moms are the enemy to a RAD kid.

2. You need to sit in the middle seat (on the plane) and I'll sit on one side and K will sit on the other so that you can keep me safe.

3. K will always be the last person in the house so that we can keep Puddin safe and she can't go in the backyard because she might hurt Stud (cat).

4. I'm going to be really quiet until I feel safe around her.

5. Show her where the alarms are so that she will know she is safe and that bad people can't hurt her in the middle of the night.

6. She doesn't need furniture in her room because she will break it because she will be so mad sometimes. Too much stuff in a room is too much mom. It's scary.

7. I will help protect Puddin because she's my sister too. (awwwww....)

8. I will never come out of my room without getting dressed first.

9. Can I have an alarm on the inside of my door so that I can be safe? (Not sure how I'm going to work that out because I like to check on her before I go to bed and I don't want to be setting the alarm off. But...if I put one on the outside of her door she can't get out without setting it off.) J hasn't needed an alarm on her door in quite a while and now she likes to have snuggle time at 5 AM. Any ideas????

10. If she shows me her private areas I will turn my head, tell her that's not appropriate and come tell you.

I was impressed with her list. Obviously she's more worried about when we get home than when we pick her up. That's totally understandable.

Just a FYI....the matching meeting still hasn't happened yet, the worker still hasn't even called our therapist (which she said she wanted to do) either but I'm still hopeful that it will happen. We're planning as if it were a sure thing but we won't know anything for a while. The worker has a whopping 60 kids on her caseload and I'm afraid if there's not a fire we're kind of on the back burner. Hoping that's not so but you know it goes.....

This afternoon we had to make a trip to the dreaded wally world to pick up my prescription that was I was shorted on. Usually J holds my hand all the way through the store or holds the cart. Today she wouldn't hold my hand. Not in a disrespectful way though. I asked her why she wasn't holding my hand. She said, "I'm eight mom and I'm walking right beside you." Geesh. Then we got to the parking lot and she held my hand. I said, "what? you want to hold my hand now?" She said, "I'm only eight mom." Hee hee....

Sidenote: The intimidating blogger I mentioned last night....she doesn't intimidate me in a bad way...it's more like the I'm not worthy way. Now you can wonder about my complex. I do it all the time. Hardy har.

P.S. J hasn't been blogging because the weather has been too nice to be inside so she's been playing hooky. 78 today and the windows open 24/7 for the last 4 days. Nice. You northern gals can be jealous now. Hee hee.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Blogging Love

Do all of you know how much I love you? Seriously. I don't think I realized how much until Torina's post yesterday. It scared the bejesus out of me. Then I felt so helpless because I can't do anything to fix it. Frustrating. She had to talk me down off the ledge. Whacked. Someone with no sense of humor was mean to Sheri. I did. not. appreciate. it.

Y'all are with me through all the ups and downs, trials and tribulations, highs and lows. You listen without judging and boost me up when I'm wailing. I am so grateful for all of you. Then I follow along with your stories and ride the roller coaster with you. When you cry I'm likely to cry too, when you scream I'm screaming with you, when you've reached new milestones, I'm cheering for you like I'm watching the Dawgs play, when the fun stuff happens, I'm rolling around on the floor all agiggle.

When I first arrived on the blogging scene there seemed to be an inner circle. I was so intimidated by many more experienced bloggers. Too scared to comment on their blog. Someone might find out I'm not cool and it would be just like high school. Horrors. So I hid in the shadows until one day I ventured out of my safety zone and started commenting on a couple of blogs. Lo and behold they commented on my blog! I was in the "In Club". Yay me!!!! I became more and more brave with each passing day. Now there's only one blogger that intimidates the heck out of me. There I said it! I'm getting more courage though because I have left her a comment recently. ;-) Wonder if she'll click on the link and find out she's the "one?" Nah. She doesn't read my blog. She doesn't intimidate me in a bad way just in an "I don't feel worthy way." My complex needs work.

Through email I told Dia, that I speculated that we should all live in a commune. That way we could all support one another. Your kid's having a bad day. No problem. Another mom could swoop in and give you a break. You're sick and don't feel like cooking dinner. Another mom could deliver dinner to the troops. Kid won't get out of bed to go to school...another mom will rush right over and help them practice getting ready. Etc. Life in fantasy land. Humph. I'm a pansy though so you all have to move to Georgia ....no snow for me 8 months out of the year. ;-)

Funny and fascinating Sheri gave me an award Sunday night. Getting her to comment is like pulling teeth ;-) but it's comforting to know that she's there. She's one of the ones in the experienced blogger arena. I literally jumped for joy when I saw that she was following my blog. I have struggled mightily with who to pass this on to because I REALLY don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. This has happened in the past. I am a southern girl y'all so it's against my religion to hurt someone's feelings. That is unless someone pisses me off then they'd better watch out. Sorry that just sort of slipped out. ;-)

The Dardos Award is given in "recognition of cultural, ethical, literary, and personal values transmitted in the form of creative and original writing. These stamps were created with the intention of promoting fraternization between bloggers, a way of showing affection and gratitude for work that adds value to the Web."

The rules:
1) Accept the award by posting it on your blog along with the name of the person that has granted the award and a link to his/her blog.
2) Pass the award to another five blogs that are worthy of this acknowledgment, remembering to contact each of them to let them know they have been selected for this award.

Drumroll please....

And the winners are:

Eyes Opened Wider - It is so obvious that this social worker truly cares for the kids in her care. I admire that so much.

Rancho Chico - Dia is in the same radical boat and paddling like the dickens. I love that about her!

Faith Makes Things Possible - Linda takes me with her on the roller coaster and I love it. I am an adrenaline junkie. This is not a secret folks. The cat was out of the bag when I said I was going to adopt another radical.

Essie the Accidental Mommy - Oh! She makes me giggle hysterically and roll around on the floor all the time.

Raising Alyssa - Gerri cracks me up and keeps it real all at the same time. She's been hanging with me since J has arrived home and I drug her into blogging land with me.

Tudu's a Mom - I met Tudu at a RAD support group in Atlanta. I immediately connected with her and she talked me into blogging (probably just to shut me up.) ;-) She has been such a great support and taught me lots of stuff.

Yeah... I know it's six but I have to be a rebel.

I am so grateful for y'all. You get me better than most of my IRL friends.


Today I'm posting over here so please stop by and show me some comment love.

Kristina...that means you too.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Lost: Half a Dog



I can't believe how much Puddin had grown out. Seriously, like half of her has disappeared. Freaky.

It was a clothes shopping weekend. Shopping really stresses me out. When I do go I am a woman on a mission. J has outgrown EVERYTHING. Those cute little bathing suits (never worn) that I got her in October at Myrtle Beach (home of the cheap swimsuit) are never going to grace her body. Nope. I had to cry a little over that. Play clothes, go-to-town clothes, socks, underwear, belts, sandals, etc. Nothing fits. Talk about stressful. This required a LOT of shopping. She was swimming in a 6x for almost 2 years. In November she moved to swimming in a 7. Now she's jumped to a 9/10. Yikes.

Saturday night after picking up Puddin in Atlanta we stopped by Tarzhay and I got her 5 play outfits. No trying on mind you.... Nope. Grabbed them and ran. Sunday morning she tried them on and and 2 shorts and 2 shorts had to be returned. Too small. So G came over and talked us into sushi so we returned the favor by talking him into shopping. Hee hee. Never ever take G shopping unless you are expecting to do some mighty buying. 7 go-to-town outfits, 2 new pajamas, 2 dresses, 6 play outfits and all the acroutrements that go with them. My budget was so relieved. ;-)

J's closet has been cleaned out, reorganized and everything has been packed away for K's arrival. New clothes have been ironed and put away. The cutest shoes, dresses, capri outfits, etc. Someone failed to tell me that all the cute clothes stop at 6x.

J is doing state testing today so it's taken me all day to get this post completed. More to come later....

It's 80 degrees outside!

I hate it when blogger takes out all my paragraph lines.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

J's Gift

J gave me an arrangement of silk gerbera daisies. My favorite! Also, $41 cash and an arrangement of balloons! Which I will spend taking her to do something fun this afternoon. Ssssshhhhh....it's a secret.

Feeling much better today but not so much sleep last night... weird nightmares, endless trips to the bathroom and two cats fighting outside my bedroom window at 1:30 AM then up at 4:30 to get Puddin ready for her big day. Crystal picked her up at 5 on the dot and I've been a nervous Nelly ever since. She called me a bit ago to let me know that she was walking Puddin outside because she didn't like being around all the dryers. Crystal & Puddin will be judged and finished around 5 but Crystal won't be able to leave until 9 or 10 tonight. So....I'm driving down to the Hilton this afternoon to pick her up. I can't wait!

60 degrees at 8 AM! Supposed to be a high around 78. Yay! Gets me in the mood to garden. Wishing I lived on a farm. I'd be planting my potatoes and spring greens! All shade here so only flowers....

Friday, March 6, 2009

Pooped Puppy

I'm tired and cranky. Just haven't felt too well for the last couple of days. J is doing extremely well and has been very helpful, attentive and caring. Yay me! Today she insisted on doing my chores and hers too so that I could rest. With a great attitude I might add.

Despite feeling under the weather I had a wonderful time with my friend last night. Great company and dinner. It was really nice to be out with an adult and to be treated like a lady. Andrea Bocelli, Michael Buble....it was fabulous.

Tonight we did the family celebration thing. It, too, was wonderful but boy am I ever tired.

This afternoon J stopped doing chores and said, "Mom, I have something to tell you that's really embarrassing. I didn't notice until I got to Daddy G's that I had gotten the wrong kind of card. It's for a sister but I got it for the picture and the words inside the card. Will you please not show anyone else because I'm embarrassed?" No problem honey. It was really sweet and I was proud of her.

Tudu, thank you so much for my birthday serenade. I LOVED it!!! You have a beautiful voice and it meant a lot! I save the voice mail. Hee hee!

Tomorrow morning Puddin leaves to go to the beauty parlor show at 5 AM. I'll remember to take pictures tonight so you can have before and after. I'll worry about her all day but I know she's in good hands. Puddin has anxious attachment too so she'll miss her mama all day. Plus she'll be around all those dogs all day long. Horrors!

Two awards today from Muppet. She cracks me up with her special brand of humor. She's not for the feint of heart. I'm not going to give them to any particular person because you are all too special. I just can't pick out a few so it's for all of you. Sticking with me through thick and thin. Being supportive and tolerating my antics through the good and bad. You all rock!

A giant cyber hug to all of you:

And Cute blogger:
This pooped puppy is going to bed with the other patchouli scented pooped puppy.

Good night John Boy....

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Great Day!

Apologies for the sideways picture. This is the arrangement that G sent me for my birthday. I've received some beautiful arrangements in my lifetime but this one took the cake. Not sure if you can tell but it is a VERY tall vase with an orchid stem in it. 12 orchids blooming! If I were Pioneer Woman I'd be able to take a picture to do it justice but instead this will have to do. The best part was that he went to the florist and picked them out himself. Yay G!
Thanks everyone for all the FB birthday, email and phone call wishes. Truly I am overwhelmed by your kindness! This birthday has been a dang site better than last year which was spent in a 48 hour crying jag. Major PTSD flaring up....better change the subject.
By 6:30 AM I had been serenaded by 6 different people. Phone calls. My friend, Connie, wrote me the sweetest poem:
Relationships are like fairy tales....fleeting and hard to maintain.
However, you and I have discovered a wonderful friendship
even through the midst of our pain.
I know we'll be friends forever and no better will we find...
Because no one else could put up with us
We are two of a kind!
A phone call from Chrissi in Germany made my day. Out to dinner tonight with a friend. Tomorrow night is family celebration and my parents are taking us out to dinner.
Little Miss Priss has actually been trying hard today instead of punishing me for having a birthday. Yahoo!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

The Matching Game

I finally heard from our SW. K has ODD & ADD. Bi-polar ruled out but I'm thinking there's some RAD in there too. We go to match in 2 weeks!!!!!! The SW is advocating that K be moved now but K's worker is thinking May placement.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

I am a little slow sometimes

But eventually I'll get there. Yesterday that rocking Torina gal posted a link about toolboxes. Uh huh. Forgot to click on the link. Today slow girl (me) remembered that she didn't click on that link. So I ventured over there to take a gander. She. Wasn't. Kidding. It's a great site!

Check'em out:

Tools for Fostering Attachment

Tools for Rage

Tools for Sensory Integration

Tools for Sleep

I was really disappointed that the Progressive Muscle Relaxtion and school IEP links didn't work but other than that this is one of the best all-in-one sites that I've seen. Thanks Torina!

There's tons more so go investigate.

No More Whispering Allowed

Yesterday I was a less than stellar mother. Blech. I sucked at it. Something happened after dinner and it was all downhill from there. She lost her temper then I jumped in the fire with her. Understandable for J but I hate it when I do it. Yuck. Yuck and double yuck. I went in her room after all was calm and apologized for losing my temper. She said, "Mom, I'm sorry I lost my temperature too." ;-)

It was too late for restitution last night so this morning she had chocolate from me. J then reciprocated by drying my hair so all is well. We're both in a better mood today.

My worker has talked to the K's worker. We're supposed to talk this afternoon. Trying to put my patience panties on but dang it's hard.

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Monday, March 2, 2009


Well...technically no snow at our house but J bundled up and we drove to the next county south and saw 4/5 inches. We would've driven farther to see the reported 7 inches but the roads started getting a little dicey and my truck is neither 4WD or all wheel drive so we settled for the parking lot at Cracker B*rrel to play a little. A big snowiceball fight was had by all.

I'm whispering here. Sssshhh.... So far no meltdowns over the impending trip. It's early yet but still..... I'm taking medication with us just in case she needs it. The AT has encouraged me to take her off it since it's having no effect on her behavior. So I have even though I love the placebo effect it gives me. I scheduled an appointment for a new psychological on the 16th. I'm interested to see how that goes. She's only had one and that was June 2007. The doctor recommended doing another one in a year but I completely forgot last year. I can't imagine why.

I am kind of trying to lose a couple of chins before NY. Nothing like a trip to give me some incentive. You know you have to take pictures on trips and I hate having my picture taken with my 5 chins. Ugghh. Having left over chocolate pie in the house is NOT helping. I refuse to throw chocolate away though! Bad food choices for lunch too. 80 flights of stairs so far today. 2 rounds of w i i fit. Have got to get some more water down. Did I mention I loathe exercising and would really rather have a coke than water?

Dia would you email me privately? Pretty please? My address is under my profile.