Despair

All of you know that the complete seminar is available on an audio cast on my blog here.  You can listen or even download to your i p*d.   Several of you have emailed me about video taping the tapping sequence.  So I did.  *gasp*  I transcribed the audio and did the video below.  If you're feeling despair and you have no idea how to keep keeping on.  Watch and tap with me.



Here is the script:

Even though I feel this despair. I choose to love and accept myself anyway.

Even though I feel this despair  I choose to love and honor myself anyway.

Even though I feel this despair because this is so hard 

I had the best of intentions but I’m not sure I knew it would be this hard and I’m not sure I can handle it .

In fact there are times when I’m sure I can’t handle it.

Even though I feel all this despair I choose to deeply and completely love, honor and accept myself and my kids and anyone else who might be involved in this.

All this despair

All these feelings of despair.

All these heavy feelings of despair

I’m not sure I can make it

I’m not sure I can do this

This is so hard

This is so challenging

And I’m not sure I can do it

And at times I’m sure I can’t do it.

I can’t hold on much longer.

I want to help

But I just can’t do this.

Oh me of little faith.

All this self doubt

It’s challenging

It’s hard to have faith in myself

and part of me doesn’t want to

Because if I have faith in myself I have to do this

And part of me wants a way out.

I want to be able to say I’m sorry I just can’t do this anymore

And no one can blame me

it’s a lot to ask to someone

and if I can’t keep going on I need to do what I need to do 

but I choose to give myself permission to clear the self doubt

that puts me into despair

and to clear all this stuff that puts me in to despair

all this despair

this fear that it will never get better

this fear that it will never end

clearing all that stuff that puts me into despair

this fear that it’s never going to get better.

this fear that its going to be forever

even though I know it will end because my kid is going to move out eventually

one way or another

they may not grow out of their issues but at some point they’re going to move out

in some way shape or form

this is not a permanent issue 

and maybe i do have what it takes to stick with it for longer

I choose to have more faith in myself

I’m also open to the possibilities that are there ways to make it less difficult

I’m giving myself a new tool right now

I’m giving myself something to help me cope

and cope in healthy way

this is a much healthier way to deal with stress

than maybe some of the things I’ve done in the past

and with this tool

I can let go of some of this despair

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel

in fact I can allow myself to see some light right here and now

and in fact I’m lightening up right now

I choose to lighten up

clearing the despair

clearing it at a cellular level

clearing it all the way back through my past 

back through the time I’ve been with this child 

and back through my own childhood

releasing it completely.

or as much as I can allow myself right now

I deserve to be free

I deserve to let go of the despair

I don’t need it anymore

it’s not helping me

its safe to let it go

its safe to let myself feel better

and as I let the despair go

I find myself having more patience

when I feel hopeless and I feel like I’m serving a life sentence it’s no wonder I get impatient

there’s no way I can feel patient when I feel like it’s going to be this way forever

Clearing these fears

and as I clear these fears I have greater access to patience and that feels good

that’s a gift I’m giving myself.

its a gift I’m giving my kids but it’s also a gift I’m giving myself

it’s a win-win situation

and we deserve that

continuing to let go of stress

releasing it from every fiber of my being

releasing these fears

releasing these doubts

I’m allowing myself to relax 

as an act of love to myself

which I really deserve

in body mind and spirit

Deep breath and slowly let it out.